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    September 23

    别说想我

    自从我离开,分别至今,每每你见到我都说“我想你了”。有多想?你却如何也答不上!因为你结婚了所以我和自己不喜欢的人在一起,我走了,你说喜欢我,说想我!那时我觉得满足,纵然不可能在一起,但彼此喜欢过足矣!然而渐渐我发现自己真的是傻的可以。你想我,在我离开的时候连一通电话都未打过;你想我,却一次都不曾发短信问候我;你想我,却在我回去的时候消失得无影无踪!这就是你口中的“想我”,真的只是口中的想我。再也不会迁就你了,再也不会相信你了,我不是你的蓝颜更不是你的玩物,别再说你想我,别拿你的敷衍来哄我开心!

    所以他说他想我,我笑了!想我?玩笑!想我什么?我们那时才刚见面,相处还不到两个钟头,除了我的名字一无所知,那什么想我!难道都不觉得自己说那话时有多可笑吗?想我,所以让我一个人过情人节,和别人一起吃饭,拿别人的电影票,收别人的巧克力?想我,所以明知搬家却让我形单影只自力更生?想我,丢了都不会惊慌失措寻找我?说连自己都不肯相信的谎,又何必要说呢!那谎言到后来即便已经漏洞百出,却连揭穿的兴致都耗尽了。他一次次说想我,我看见的却是他一步步远去的身影,终于他再也不说想我,因为他已走出我的世界。想我,因为是谎言,说的人累了,听的人厌了,最终彼此都精疲力尽了!

    真正想一个人,哪怕对方就躺在自己身旁不远处发出均匀的鼾声,心底却还是觉得不安,那痛苦闷在胸口让人喘不上气,却又找不出恰当的言语来加以修饰。想,就是深藏心底的相思之苦;念,是要把心留在今日。

    如果还没体会到那难以名状的痛苦,还没决定要在此时此刻把信交由我来尘封,那请不要轻易说出“我想你”!从来不关心我在干什么,从来不曾在乎我的心情变化,想我,听起来那么虚伪不切实际。“我想你”、“我爱你”、“我说的都是真的”、“我保证”,这只是口头禅,随便说说而已,没有任何异议,谁相信谁就是会被谎言刺伤的笨蛋。自作多情的人最终会死的很难堪。甜言蜜语也无让令我审视你的眼神错乱,演技太拙劣,假象太干涩,没办法为这种虚无的幸福而感到眩晕。在我还没被幸福的假象冲昏头脑的时候,如果不曾真的用心想过我,就不要放肆的对我说想我!别说想我,在我还不曾感觉到你想我的时候!

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